Thinking Time

I've been drooling over job listings (what?). Yeah. And guess what? They're not for hair stylists. I urn to work outside. Ever since I first realized being a hair stylist wasn't for me, I've been thinking about POSSIBLY going back to school for something in the environmental science area. I'm still going to finish school and get certified, and most likely work in a salon for a little bit, but I know I'm not going to do it long term. It's very uncomfortable for me and I don't like who I've become since I started. I literally drink alone every night (I don't get wasted though). But I drink higher quantities than I used to. I've been put on anxiety medicine.  I needed that anyway, but still. It was necessary once I started school. As you can tell, I've stopped writing. I have no motivation to do anything, but sit on the couch, drink, and watch tv. Pretty depressing. But anyway, I'd love to be a geologist or a scientist dealing with plants and habitats.

It really sucks that we're basically forced to figure out what we want to do for a living when were 18. I had no idea what I wanted to at 18, or 20, or 22. Now I'm 24 and just now realizing what my passions and hobbies are. It's unfortunate that I have to spend a huge amount of money to find out what I don't want to do.

All I know is that all the things that make me happy revolve around nature.

-Camping
-Hiking
-Being outside
-Plants
-Gardening
-Being in the mountains

Also, somewhat related, I made a "Happiness List" of all the things I can think of that make me happy. But, the following list is like my ultimate happiness/what I want to do more of.

*Daniel

*healthy food

*being in shape

*family

*hanging out with friends

*a clean house

*being outside

*hiking

*walks

*cooking

*spontaneity

*adventures

*dressing well

*a well decorated house

*parties

*being creative

*traveling

*good hair

*finishing things up

*getting rid of things

*camping

*minimalism

So yeah, we'll see what the future holds. I graduate in less than two months :DDD

Thinking About My Bucket List Again

And not much as changed. I revisited my old bucket list post, and it was interesting to reread. I have actually accomplished a couple things, including some that I hadn't mentioned on my previous post:

- I own a white Mini Cooper and I love it. The transmission is a bit janky at times, but overall, I love it.

- I got "a couple" of tattoos. One being my "lagom är bäst" tattoo. The other being a number 13 underneath a ladder I got on a Friday the 13th. I actually kind of regret this one. I was sort of pressured into getting it by hair school people (namely teachers). But I love the Swedish one :)

- I guess you could say I have great hair. I'm basing that on the fact that there's nothing I would change about it

- I'm on my way to becoming a hair stylist. I have less than two months of school left. Then, I will be able to get state certified. Whether I'll stay a stylist long term, or not, is still up in the air. However, it was on my list. I even leveled up to a Level 3 (one of only 5 in the school I believe)

- I've seen the Sound of Animals Fighting live, and it was amazing. I got an amazing spot up close and even got to shake one of the main artists hand.

- I've met Anthony Green (who is also in The Sound of Animals Fighting and in the video above); my favorite artist of all time and got a picture of him with his arm around me. He even asked me my name and called me by it.

I hadn't really realized just how much I've accomplished until I wrote this. The next thing on my list though will most likely be going to Iceland and seeing the Northern Lights, and also swimming in the Blue Lagoon. I've started taking the first steps toward accomplishing this. I've started researching costs, road trip plans, reading about the culture, and watching traveling videos.

After that I don't really know. I would love to see Fleet Foxes live, but I don't know if they even perform any more. I would love to see Mountain Man live too, but that will likely never happen. Owning a cabin in or near the mountains is another thing I would love to make a reality. 

It's just cool and fun to make a goal and do what you can to accomplish it.

It's Been a While

I really haven't had a ton to write about lately. Life has been pretty boring. I've been going to school mostly. I'm set to graduate around the first week of August. Oh yeah, I'm trying a temporary vegan diet. I don't really have a set time for how long it's going to last. I just want to try it and see if I feel better. I've still been drinking though, which is going to make the results not as accurate. I'm 3 days in I think. I did have one meal that wasn't vegan though, because I went to one of my favorite places in Atlanta, The Porter. The meal was vegetarian though.

Oh yeah, I got my hair cut too. It's an asymmetrical bob. One sides sits a little past the shoulder, and the other side is longer. I really like it. I really just want to focus on getting my hair healthy. I bleached it a lot recently, so it's in a fragile state, but much better than it was.

Lol that's about it for now!

I've Been Busy

Lately, I've had almost zero free time. Or if I do, I end up being too tired to do anything with it. Life lately has been pretty stressful with hair school. It's kind of taken over my life. I'm enjoying it, but it's a lot more difficult than I thought it would be. Not that I thought it would be easy, I just thought I would learn quicker. I've got to say, it's honestly the hardest thing I've done in my entire life. Even more difficult than accounting. I've kind of questioned whether or not this is the correct career path for me, but I honestly can't see myself doing anything else. I'm going to make it happen. Even if I fail a million times, I'm going to make it happen. I'm not giving up.

Besides that, I'm longing to be in a cabin again. Flannel has been on my mind a lot. Fireplaces, wood walls, coziness. I need a vacation, and in the mountains is where I want to be right now.

The Time Has Come

Tomorrow is one of two exciting things! Most importantly, tomorrow is my first day of cosmetology school! I'm so, so excited! A bit nervous, but mostly excited! There was a very long time where I thought this day would never come. I can't wait to take the first step towards my future career. The staff at the school has already been super welcoming! I have a feeling I'm going to go broke though, because there's a Panera right across the street for lunch breaks and a Starbucks in the same plaza as my school lol. But I'm going to be going to school Tuesday-Saturday 8:00-3:30. I'm a bit worried about balancing work and school, but I'm going to try my best. Anyway, I'm super excited to say the least.

The second exciting thing (but not that important) is that tomorrow is the first official day of fall! We're going to celebrate by having a fire in the fire pit with a friend or two. We're not actually celebrating fall, lol but to me we are. It will be a commemorative fire to celebrate fall and my first day of school.

I'm excited about what's to come over the next few months! Lots of exciting things to look forward to!

New Job

So I don't think I've mentioned this, but I got a new job! I'm pretty happy. I'm a server at a restaurant. It's only like my second week. But it's nice because I got close to a week off after I quit Tanner's, because I was waiting for the restaurant to open.

It's crazy, because I realized something tonight. I'm happy. I felt like something has been missing in my life for a while now, and I couldn't quit put my finger on it. I'm happy with my husband, my house (for the most part I'll get to that in a sec.), my job I obviously wasn't though. This job is so much better. I haven't quite started making "bank" yet, but overall, I'm sooooo much happier. My managers are awesome, the people are awesome for the most part, and I don't feel like a reject. At my old job, I didn't make the cut to be a server, and it got to me. I felt terrible about myself, like I wasn't good enough. I shouldn't have let it get to me like that, but it was hard not to. At this job, I was trained to be "front of house checker". Which doesn't sound like much, but basically I was the one that had to check every other servers sections and sign them off. I had to mop the entire dining room, which sucked. I enjoyed having the responsibility though.

One thing that's been stressing me out though is MOLD. So a couple weeks back. Daniel and I tore into the wall, sprayed the mold with mold killer, painted it with kilz and ran an air scrubber for 3 days. My cough seemed to get worse some how. I had a feeling there had to be more mold. (Daniel didn't believe me.) We were trying to avoid ripping out more drywall. I was so stressed, because several people who we had do estimates on the mold, told us that basically they wouldn't do it, because the job wasn't big enough. We really didn't know what our next option was. So when Daniel texted me a picture of mold at work, I actually got excited. He had torn into the wall and found more mold about as big as the first section we found. I was basically ecstatic, because that meant we could fix it without having someone come out. So he just went ahead and ripped the moldy drywall out and sprayed down everything else. We're still going to have to rent an air scrubber again. Which will suck, but it's better an spending $1000 to get someone to come out and do it. $1000 was everyones minimum to do the work. I've been feeling like a crazy person about this whole mold thing. It feels so good to finally have some closure. I've only been home like an hour, and I feel like I can already see an improvement. It will be even better once we do the other two steps.

So yeah, I just had to blog about that. Exciting things happening.

Fall Fever

Every year, way too early on, I start getting excited for fall. The weather hasn't been helping either. It's been much cooler and cloudy. Since last year, I've wanted to make a fall bunting. I couldn't decide if I wanted to do paper or fabric. I decided on card stock since I've never made one before. Also, I decided to make a Halloween themed one. I may make an actual fall one too. So I went to Michael's and bought card stock to make it. I've cut everything out, but haven't attached it yet. I'm thinking about possibly buying a skull stamp and stamping the orange ones, but I haven't decided yet. Also if you're wondering why they're shaped like that, it's because the flap gets folded over the string.

I also bought some black striped burlap, which I'm not sure what I'm going to do with that yet. In addition, I bought lots of black card stock, and fall colored card stock as well. I figured I'd start working on all the crafts/ DIY stuff I want to do for Halloween now, since I never feel like it or get too overwhelmed when Halloween is actually here. That way I can just put up whatever I made in the beginning of October. Last year I started decorating wayy too early. I literally decorated for fall on the first of September lol. I can't be that eager again lol. What I did was decorate for a fall theme, then put up Halloween stuff, and once Halloween was over, I put the fall stuff up again. As you can tell, I've never been much of a summer girl.